Me

I will tell you a little bit about myself and my life, I am a completely calm person, a little talkative maybe I am satisfied with a smile if I am happy or a miserable look if I am sad, most of my life is self-reliant, I am very good at cooking, I like to learn something new every day, I like to learn different fields such, I love reading and my most favorite types are Islamic books, history books, I love landscapes and the sunrise and the moon shining in the darkness of the sky decorated with stars, trees, flowers and roses, but I loved all that landscape more because I discovered that the person I love loves all that too, but my life is not so beautiful, my life is full of many responsibilities. I play 3 roles in my life, I play the role of myfather, mymother and my role as a brother, because my father has become old and BP , DM patient , he carried a lot in his life, every day he comes from his work tired and completely exhausted, he falls short in some things but not by his will, so I try to compensate for this shortcoming, I help him provide another source of income and I think with him every time things go wrong and I try to complete the rest of his role, as for my mother's role, I do it completely until now, I am still the one who prepares the food because there is no one else who can do that, and I help clean the dishes and clean the house, I am so proud of that. I always try to be as close to my sisters as possible as if I am their mother so that they do not feel anything missing in their lives, and at the end of every day I talk to my sisters, I never considered them my sisters, but I consider them my daughters, every day I  talk to them to tell me what happened in their day and I always try to be the well of their secrets,  every day I try to do all my responsibilities to the fullest and every night I wonder if I did everything completely or made a mistake , I lie on my bed every night from fatigue but satisfaction fills my heart because only God knows what I do every day and what I have done and sure God will compensate me for everything good, the Lord of good only brings good, I am not sad or miserable of my life I am completely proud of what I do, all these responsibilities made me a man who depends on himself in everything in his life. I hate social media, I don't like it at all I think every day to close all my accounts, but I ask myself how I will know the news of the person I love, I don't like to show what I do because I I'm not interested in that, and I don't want anyone to care about what I do in my day so I don't like to show up too much. Maybe it makes you think I'm sad most of the time but I'm not, I don't like sadness at all, even at worst I never stop smiling, sometimes you think I'm ignoring you but I'm not, I hesitate a lot before I write anything to you for fear that I will be a burden on you, I'm not much talkative and I didn't imagined that one day I would write these words to someone, but I was reassured for you and my heart was reassured for you, believe me there is no person in my life to tell him anything or what I went through, even my family. I don't like to appear my weakness in front of anyone, so I don't tell anyone anything except you because my heart is reassured for you, I am responsible for everything in my life and responsible for every word I write. You might think that these are just words like any Words but they differ from who said them, I am responsible and completely honest in what I tell you. Every time I saw you look at me, I felt like you knew what was inside me perfectly and you felt everything I was going through, it wasn't just looks. every time my heart was reassured a lot, and maybe I wondered if someone was knowing what's inside me ?. I see the answer in your eyes .